daily musings for the sensible citizen

fix_our_eyes @ 2008-02-09T19:53:00

2008-02-10T04:06:21Z

LiveJournal! I almost feel like a creep because i come on here just to read my friends page- which is mostly of entries from former friends who i never talk to anymore. And if i'm not reading my friends page i'm reading old entries which just makes me nostalgic.

So why did i even stop writing in here? hmm, i think i just substituted all my entries in here with actual physically writing with a pen on real physical paper.

meh, i'm already tired of this. done and done

fix_our_eyes @ 2008-01-29T10:03:00

2008-01-29T18:04:49Z

computers have their down sides

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-12-08T22:06:00

2007-12-09T06:15:28Z

last weekend was perfect.: friends, snow, coco, christmas movies... ah.

and now, mmm, isn't this nice... school is out.

guide me, father.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-11-06T17:28:00

2007-11-07T01:43:47Z

done, done, done... with work. That means that my Saturdays are now days to look forward to. Yay! This last weekend was really the first free one, but because i was gone so it doesn't really count.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-10-30T22:04:00

2007-10-31T05:06:20Z

oh yes, i have things to look forward to.
but i don't want to get my hopes up too far.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-10-22T21:08:00

2007-10-23T04:13:22Z

I got my new camera today! (ah, it is the most adorable things you've ever seen. Nikon D40x, i love you.)
I got new boots.cute.
I am seriously considering going to Capernwary bible school in England.
Pray for God's will to be done and for his guidance

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-09-25T15:46:00

2007-09-25T22:58:19Z

I have Math 140 with Abby Lund and Peter Erikson. If you need another math credit- take 140 because it is ridiculously easy- watercolor was harder. Today my teacher spent 50 minutes talking about why a+b = b+a. Are you kidding? this is COLLEGE math? I did this stuff when i was 13.. and it was easy then. Oh, he used a GREAT example too: milk + noodles = noodles + milk. Oh thank you, i can understand this much better now that you have turned "b" into noodles. hahaha, the class is great because there are fun people in it- and i can draw all i want. You have no idea how happy i was to see Abby sitting there when i first walked in. She is one of those people that time never really does anything to. Even though we had lost contact for a few years we can still chat and laugh as much as we did when we were really close friends at the ages of 14 and 16. The topics are different though, haha. I have already spilled out my insides to her (and vis-versa) and it is only the 2nd day of school. She offers good advice and counsels me on my troubled or confusing relationships and i adore her.

After math i have a two hour break (MW) and a three hour break (TTh). I spend that time meeting " Edmonds Community Friends" in the courtyard. I know SO many people, it is lovely. (Kari, Kelly, Greta, Krista, Anne, Louissa, Matt, Pete, Abby, Emmy, AshAsh, Nicole, Jeremy, Anne-Marie, Caleb, Elise, Pam... and those are only the people i have seen/hung out with)

Now i am going to go take five minutes and do my math homework... which i don't even get graded on.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-09-21T22:38:00

2007-09-22T05:57:55Z

Today i worked until 5 then went to Costco and printed $10 worth of 4x6 and 5x7s out. I also saw Sam's dad and bought some pumpkin pie ingredients. When we got home my little brothers wanted to watch some farmer/space movie. I was almost going to stick it out and watch it all, but then Sam called and broke the trance. I now am upstairs admiring my newly covered "photo wall". I think putting up all my new pictures was a good way to officially end the summer. Tomorrow is fall- and I am having a pie bake with Maria and Sam.... others will probably show up to eat our creations, but half the fun is baking them, right?

holy crap, we have a

goodbye summer

!! yes. I didn't even know about it until last month when my dad said he was in the back bay sailing around. I thought he was kidding. Hopefully we will go out to the cabin for thanksgiving and i will get to sail around and become nautical. hahaha

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-09-19T22:21:00

2007-09-20T05:32:47Z

I am getting excited for school. Of course i am also nervous, but then again i am only taking 15 credits- one class doesn't have any take-home homework and.. well, i usually have like 6 classes with homework AND still have free time.... so i think i can manage 3.

Youth group is awesome? yes. oh, i love my church and all the people and all our inside jokes. It's the best .
I want you to know that kelly was greatly missed tonight and that EVERYONE was asking "Where's kelly?" and it even got annoying.

I want to have a pie bake on saturday.

I am glad that my friends don't live far away.

I look forward to wearing coats, scarves, and boots

I get to sleep in tomorrow.

I don't know what i want to do with my life.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-09-06T20:54:00

2007-09-07T04:06:30Z

September is the month for change, but change isn't always bad.

Youth group starts next week and i have all these new weird responsibilities, you know, being a senior and all.... A SENIOR. When did that happen? man oh man.

Nicole is coming home for thanksgiving. AH! yes! i miss my other half.
I reallllly want to go to the cabin. and i would need to bring the best ever combo of people (Kelly, Maria, and Sam). we would all go and play in the forest and Maria would probably do something crazy.. then, of course, kelly would make some funny comments on it and sam and i would laugh heartily. Then Sam would go fishing with me little brothers and Maria, Kelly, and I would take the sailboat out on the back lagoon. it could happen.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-08-22T17:24:00

2007-08-23T00:30:30Z

kelly's cat!

i just like looking at these pictures... so i thought that you might like to as well.
By the way, summer is going good.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-07-31T22:13:00

2007-08-01T05:26:20Z

I am happy. Happy with friends, happy with work, happy with family, and really i can trace this back my relationship with Christ. He has just filled me up, filled me to the rim.. and i think i am overflowing.

Creation was so fun. I love Kelly, I love Alison, Bjorn, and Nicole. I love my youth group and i am excited that i am a part of this generation because something cool is happening.
other neat thing: I was asked to be on the design committee for the "youth" part of the new building. I am excited and flattered. it is going to be so neat and hip. yeaah!!

But tomorrow is August and i don't even want to think about Nicole leaving.

And i will put this : ) on here as a representation of all the golden secrets that i can't write about.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-07-24T09:05:00

2007-07-24T16:25:55Z

wow, so far... best summer ever. I have laughed more than i ever thought possible, cute and exciting things have happened, and new good friends have been made. Something really cool has happened too... for once, everyone lives near each other. There are two friends (besides kelly) who live in walking distance, and the others only live 5-10 minutes drive away.

ahhh, i am sad though. My friend Nicole is going to Hillcrest in a couple of weeks. I am going to miss her immensely. It sucks how you always seem to get really close to some one right before the go away for a while. We have known each other for a while, but at camp this year we really 'clicked'. Ever since then i haven't gone a week without seeing her. She is one of the few i feel i can bounce off of.... i don't really know how to explain that... hahaha.

I miss my school friends.

Creation TOMORROW.AHcK!

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-07-18T10:04:00

2007-07-18T17:16:37Z

Everything is working out... of course. I honestly would love to indulge you all and lay my cards out on the table, but i can't. Secrets have been told and promises have been made and therefore my mouth is shut.

how exciting.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-07-16T21:51:00

2007-07-17T04:53:02Z

WAIT. WHAT!?
things can turn around so quickly.
Holy smokes.

I had Sunday off.

2007-07-16T17:07:20Z

Church in the morning. home. Anne-Marie picked me up.Old Navy, Target (swim suite... skank? return? maybe?) Strbcks, Overlands house, Alison, Maria, wii, fruit, church. Well, it was a good day. After all of that Maria came home with me and her brother and mom came and picked us up. We went to a goodbye party for a girl i don't really know. I felt incredibly awkward and uncomfortable. I was only really knew like three people, three people who i could actually call friends. Maria said later that i made it way more awkward by not talking when we were in groups. haha,oh. I don't mean to do that, i just don't talk when i don't have anything to say. And that happens a lot when i am around people i don't know... i just can't think of anything to say. uuuuuh. Spent the night at Maria's house. movie, talked, 230am.

It was all fun though, i just wish i were more out going or something.

the ideal

2007-07-12T06:32:31Z

I am sure that there was something. I am a very skeptical person, but about this i was, and am, sure of. Whenever i start doubting i just look back on everything that happened and i think: I didn't make it up, i did not make this up.
and it's true. But there has been so many opportunities for developing things more, but they weren't taken. I am disapointed, but not giving up yet. Anyways, i didn't start it, so therefore i shouldn't be the one to push it on. I really want something to happen, really. I am not brave enough.

Hhahaha.... You know what i'm talking about? haha

Summer is great though. I hope i can go to Ocean Shores next weekend, but someone needs to be willing to let me ride down with them.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-07-08T12:58:00

2007-07-08T20:04:54Z

this week i did pretty good on seeing friends.
Tuesday: Anne-Marie, Kelly, Bjorn, Ben, Maria.
Wednesday: Alison.
Thursday: Nicole, Ben.
Friday: Nicole, Ben, Kelly.
Saturday: Elise, Kari, Bethany
(and like a zillion other camp friends came over).

Oh boy. Yayyyaya! i love summer.
And this week i think i am going to go to Seattle with Bjorn
and Nicole might spend the night or something.

Creation Is also coming up, and if i can get it off work i might
be going to Ocean Shores with Alison or something.

AH! i also should be getting an extra day off of work, so... niiice.

I miss

2007-07-03T03:27:11Z

Bible Camp 2007:
Undoubtedly the best year of camp... ever. Dave was a fabulous speaker and he always held my attention and made me laugh while still teaching an amazing message. So, yes, the Sunburst speaker was great. On the other hand, our evening speaker, Vern, was whack. He would sing these ridic songs that would make me laugh until i "pained". The whole week consisted of moments of extreme laughter and amazing worship.

One really neat thing about this year is that i hungout with different people everyday. and i got to actually know people who i have 'known' for a long time. SO much happened it is almost pointless to try to write it out. I don't have the ability to totally and fully describe my week, and in some ways, it seems that if i were to do so it would be restraining the memory. hahha, it was very exciting, hilarious, intriguing, overwhelming, fun... just wowowow 'so great'

Most important discoveries of the week:
Isaiah 53.
Christ does not change and he is the only thing that can truly and entirely fill me.
nostalgia is hilarious.
The Olsoe kids are my kindred spirits.
I shouldn't wait to get to know people.
Finding new 'old' friends is way rad.

I have enough inside jokes to last me until next year.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-26T10:55:00

2007-06-26T18:12:42Z

Yesterday i work from 7:30am to 3:00 pm. I love that shift, no joke. The time goes by really quickly and i laugh a lot with my coworkers. Kelly and Aaron stopped by for a minute- that was nice of them. Bjorn picked me up from work and we went to Value Village and i bought some stuff, but Bjorn wanted to leave almost right away because he felt suffocated by all the germs and bacteria. After that we drove to my house and hungout for a bit and ate dinner. I wanted some cookies so i forced Bjorn to drive me to safeway (we dragged Andreas with us). Bought $5 dollars worth of candy and cookies and went home. The three of us ended up talking forever downstairs on Carl-Eric's bed. Andreas and I tried to get bjorn to put on some of Clicker's clothes, it was hilar. My mom knit my phone a sleeping bag. Bjorn went home. it is now Tuesday and Kelly is taking her drivers test then i am riding up with her to CAMP.

GOODBYE KIDS!

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-24T21:16:00

2007-06-25T04:34:28Z

Someone sent me a letter the other day. It was all pretty and had a collage all over the envelope. Unfortunately it was damaged so i got it in one of those "We Care" plastic bags that the postal service gives you. There was no letter inside, i am not sure if it was lost because of the envelope being damaged, or because there was not supposed to be anything inside. Anyways, it was super cute and it made my day to think that someone loves me.

Who ever you are: Thank you so much!! i will save the envelope/collage forever... it is already on my wall.

I kinda have an idea of who sent it (looking at the handwriting).... but i'm not completely sure. I would love to send a new collage back to the culprit, hahha.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-19T23:05:00

2007-06-20T06:28:17Z

I had the day off.

Anne-Marie picked me up at noon and we drove around
then went to visit Elise at work. (BTW, WELCOME HOME
KATIE!) We then zoomed off to Anne-Marie's home and
i helped her clean house and bake things. Later, people
showed up, then Andrea came... SURPRISE. it was
a surprise party. haha. Andrea could only stay for a short
while, boo. the rest of the evening was kind of awkward
but still fun. I really dislike it when people have two
personalities- they are one way in a small group, then
suddenly change when some other people come. Eh.
Inconsistency is ugly. sometimes parties turn into one big
fight for attention, and i hate it.

Now i am in an extremely odd mood. slightly unsettled
and disapointed, not in myself, but in the conduct of others.
Is it too much to hope that others can find their worth in
other places rather than just in the admiration and attention
of others? Why would you want to cheat yourself into thinking
that. ....... Less than a week till camp.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-17T12:46:00

2007-06-17T20:08:41Z

I am excited. 6 people already have asked me to do their senior pictures. hooray! i should start a business.

Camp is in 9 days... which is crazy because that means that it will soon be the end of June. JUNE. Half of the year has gone by.

Yesterday i went to two grad parties. Bjorn came over afterwards and he helped me move furniture around in my room. We watched some YouTube for a while then drove to starbucks and got some coffee. I didn't care for the music that was playing in the Starbucks- so we walked back to the car and listened to his favorite spanish radio station. From there we drove to the beach, and like all mature teenagers, we spent 10 minutes spitting off the dock. Around 9 we headed home and i spent the
rest of the evening watching hilar things on YouTube, while Bjorn played the DS with my little brothers. Bjorn left like at 11, and Carl-Eric came home around the same time. Some how Carl-Eric, Andreas, Jakob, and I ended up sitting on the floor of Jakob's room and talked until 1am.

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-14T09:17:00

2007-06-14T16:28:02Z

i am free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
kids, school is out, and my free time is now really free.

i think i am going to rearrange my room.
yes. and i will take pictures because that
is what i do.

I hope you all have a fantastic day!

p.s.
i work from 2-9, come visit me!

fix_our_eyes @ 2007-06-10T11:49:00

2007-06-10T19:33:24Z

Friday:
I got off work at five then walked home and finished up some homework. My brothers went camping with the youth group so I was an only child all weekend. That NEVER happens and it has been a very odd experience. My parents and I watched The Last King Of Scotland. oh geez. it was gruesome. Saturday: I slept in (whichhasnotbeenhappening very often because I have to get up early in order to finish up some homework before work). That morning I tried to clean my room, but it was all in vain and I ended up taking a long shower while listening to The Voyage of the Dawn Treader on CD. Around one, my mom and I drove over to John Frolich's (sp?!) grad party. I was happy because i got to see Joanna, Haley, and some school chums. After that I went to Anne-Marie's work and i met up with Elise and Anne-Marie- and off we went to Jeremy's graduation party. ate. laughed. it was good to see my school friends. left at 8:30ish and on the way home decided to stop at Christian's house. That was probably the best part of the day. It was relaxing and fun and there was just a different (and better) atmosphere then there are at parties. Christians mom made us tea and we sat on the floor around the table as we listened to french music and looked at pictures of his sister's wedding.

Today was "Sharpie Sunday" haha.
Everyone at church got sharpies and ran around the construction site writing verses and drawing pictures on the walls. fun!